但求無愧於心

常把這句話掛在嘴邊，但為什麼還是會把責任往身上攔？我不懂。

faith

The chance of me getting admitted by the school is remote, because they require their applicants to live in the States for at least several months. I am not upset with this because I can't live in the country for several months as I'd like to. I am not upset with things that are beyond my control. But I get mad at failures if they are caused by my incompetence. Consequently, I've been really mad, disappointed, frustrated about the failure. Seeing this from the opposite perspective, I suddenly understand that I have a strong confidence in myself. Because of the strong confidence, I get mad at the failure. It is great that I am confident of myself, isn't it?