The thing happens beyond my expectation. At first, I just wanted to extend my tiny little circle and make friends with others. Things, however, develop into the other direction - the direction that I've never anticipated. (Maybe I do, so I extend my circle.) You say that you like me; meanwhile, you have the other person, which makes things complicated and stirs up your confusion. This really makes me feel likable and happy. But on the other hand, I'm jittery and a little bit afraid of the ongoing situation. First, I don't believe that somebody is infatuated with me. Is it because you are lonely that you have a crush on me? Second, maybe it is a part of the first reason that causes my panic, that I am not confident of myself. I can't believe that I am someone's type.
Maybe you'll be the reason that I give up my scholarship provided by the university in UK. Maybe you'll be my strongest motivation to get admitted by schools in Taiwan. (This is quite positive, isn't it?) But this point can also lead to the question that what if you pick the other guy? What should I do? Should I indulge myself in the dilemma? Should I draw myself back so that I won't get hurt again?
God, helps me...
